Scotland Called, My Soul Answered
My recent trip to Scotland for a women’s retreat was so much more than I ever bargained for! In early September this year (2026) I was granted an amazing opportunity to attend one of Violet Angel’s 1111 (youtuber) retreats for a discounted price as some women could no longer attend. My head was saying ‘NO! How can you afford this??’, yet my heart was whispering ‘Just Go…’ and as someone who has been doing her best to listen to the call of my soul, I followed my heart!
I know in the seat of my bones it was going to be a BIG weekend and that some healing would take place, but I never imagined it would be the beginning of setting my spirit free!
Being on the retreat at Lendrick Lodge in Stirlingshire was just what the doctor ordered! Time in the goddess pool, shamanic journeys with Kate Graham from Hearts Frontier, a fire ceremony and local walks and deep inner work to name a few things all contributed to healing my poor wounded self, but it was actually meeting a woman called Kat, that actually made me stop in my tracks!
Kat was one of the participates on the retreat also and I knew she was coming from emails written back and form from Arlene before the retreat! I had no idea though how much of an impact this Kat woman was going to have on me! As a self proclaimed shaman, also on the twinflame journey, Kat read me straight away! She knew I had been holding ALOT of pain from the past! We actually became roomies and on the first night she said she felt a male ancestor around me, which turned out to be me Dad (he was of Scottish ancestry). My dad passed about nearly 7 years ago now and even though I loved him deeply and dearly, I had also been on the receiving end of his less that positive side, which had created some wounding in me! My dad wasn’t an abusive person, I need to make that clear, but he was a wounded sensitive soul himself with an unpleasant past due to his own upbringing; something which was no fault of his own!
My dad was an addict and had taught me from an very early age how to care take him, something that I think even as a child angered me! He has also taught me how to surpress my emotions just like a pro and not speak up! As I was confirming to Kat what she was channeling, I saw in my minds eye my dad literally breaking off a collar and chain that had been blocking my throat chakra for as long as I can remember. It wasn’t going to be until the next day that I would understand why that happened!
Saturday rolled around and as a group we went to Loch Venaschar. On the walk down to the loch side, I was very emotional and I literally had no idea why! When we eventually reached the loch, I just wanted to cry so hard. Kat picked up on this and came to my aid! We took a few steps away from the group and she said I just needed to scream! She was right, but I was a little nervous about doing this for (to them) no apparent reason, but scream I did anyway and boy what a show that was! I screamed and screamed at my dad! Told him everything that I felt I had been locking up inside since I was a child and thats when the seed had been planted to bring back my personal power. After I had down off loading, Kat encouraged to say a prayer for my dad, which I did and as I did so I literally felt his energy lift off my body and I felt peace that I had no felt in a long time!
I was in shock at this point, as I had no idea he was still holding me down since he passed and I felt very emotional. I also could still feel his presence around and he was very emotional as well! Needless to say the walk back to the lodge was a quiet one from me! I just don’t think I could fathorm what had happened! I just know that the experience of being able to express myself freely changed me!
Sunday came and it was the end of our retreat with Arlene and Kate, but it wasn’t the end of my adventure! You see before I came on the retreat I had been dreaming for years of going to Inverness with my twinflame and though that never happened in the time I thought it would, something told me that I had to stay in Scotland for a little longer! Kat, also being a gypsy to a degree said she was happy to take me around Scotland for a few days in exchange for food and places to stay. I had never travelled with a stranger before, but in all honesty, I felt I needed to stay in her company for a little while! And so on the sunday evening we began our travels, firstly back to Stirling as I had already had my accommodation booked for the next two nights as a means to ready myself for my usual routine back home. For the next 5 days, Kat and I travelled around Scotland, reaching Aviemore, Inverness, Loch Ness, the Isle of Skye, Fort Augustus and Dunblane before heading back down into England.
Kat takes her work as a photographer and shaman very seriously and even though I got a little irritable at times with her stopping and taking time, I knew in my heart it was for the greater good and a reminder to myself of who I am at my core! You see I was labelled with a mental health condition back in early 2019 and even though I knew in my heart it wasn’t true, due to the circumstances that led to this label (I started hearing voices), I tried to remain open minded that maybe I got something wrong! This is actually a blog or vlog for another day, but I will say that having lived with this situation for my many years now and having been through different medications that did nothing to avail my situation, I had the confirmation I needed to confirm to my I was healthy during our trip! On our travels, Kat got me involved with some of her shamanic work and when we shared experiences, we both had the same things happened to us, which I know might not sound like solid evidence, but it was enough for me to shift my perspective from possibly unwell, to healthy just like that!
Kat has been instrumental to my healing journey and I am sure we will see each other again! She has helped me rediscover my gifts and joy! <3
